These past few months have been the hardest months of my life in a long time. I’m not going to go into detail about it just yet, as it is another blog post all on its own. However, one week from tomorrow, I move into a new apartment. As anyone in Los Angeles, there is no way in hell that I can afford an apartment all on my own, but I feel like this move is a huge step for me. I will, for the first time in the two and a half years that I have lived here in Los Angeles, have a place that I can call mine.
There are many emotions that go with this however. Excited. Nervous. Overwhelmed. Scared shitless. Just to name a few emotions. It is all a roller coaster.
It has made me think about the two and a half years that I have lived here and how much things have changed, how much I have changed, as well as how thankful that I have a city that I call home even if it is crazy 99.9% of the time. I have a tribe that I have chosen that I can go to. I have never felt so comfortably uncomfortable and I wouldn’t change it for the world.
Do I have all the answers on how things are going to go? Nope. Am I taking a leap of faith and trust when it comes to all the responsibilities that come with moving? Absolutely. Would I want it any other way? Hell no. I do know one thing though, God will help me through it. I mean this apartment is a huge blessing and he totally opened the doors for my roommate and I to get this place, so I know that because he made sure we got it, He’s not going to leave me hanging.
I obviously have a lot to fill people in on, but there just hasn’t been a lot of time to do that. Hopefully in the next few weeks I can get it all out on the screen and type it out. I forgot how therapeutic blogging and writing can be. I missed it. Until then, enjoy my obsession of posting Instagram photos!