Moving In (Literally) Into a New Season

These past few months have been the hardest months of my life in a long time.  I’m not going to go into detail about it just yet, as it is another blog post all on its own.  However, one week from tomorrow, I move into a new apartment. As anyone in Los Angeles, there is no way in hell that I can afford an apartment all on my own, but I feel like this move is a huge step for me.  I will, for the first time in the two and a half years that I have lived here in Los Angeles, have a place that I can call mine.

There are many emotions that go with this however.   Excited.  Nervous. Overwhelmed.  Scared shitless.  Just to name a few emotions.  It is all a roller coaster.

It has made me think about the two and a half years that I have lived here and how much things have changed, how much I have changed, as well as how thankful that I have a city that I call home even if it is crazy 99.9% of the time.  I have a tribe that I have chosen that I can go to.  I have never felt so comfortably uncomfortable and I wouldn’t change it for the world.

Do I have all the answers on how things are going to go?  Nope.  Am I taking a leap of faith and trust when it comes to all the responsibilities that come with moving?  Absolutely.  Would I want it any other way?  Hell no.  I do know one thing though, God will help me through it.  I mean this apartment is a huge blessing and he totally opened the doors for my roommate and I to get this place, so I know that because he made sure we got it, He’s not going to leave me hanging.

I obviously have a lot to fill people in on, but there just hasn’t been a lot of time to do that.  Hopefully in the next few weeks I can get it all out on the screen and type it out.  I forgot how therapeutic blogging and writing can be.  I missed it.  Until then, enjoy my obsession of posting Instagram photos!

 

 

#MusicMonday: My Name is Blurryface

This week I chose the song “Stressed Out”by twenty one pilots,

Twenty-One Pilots are a band that I just recently heard about after this song started playing on the radio.  They have actually been around for about 5 years.  The band, which consists of Tyler Joseph and Josh Dun, hail from Columbus, Ohio.  “Stressed Out” is their third single off of their album “Blurryface.”  To me, their sound is unique.  A mix of hip hop, mixed with alternative with a pop feel.

You might be wondering why blurryface and what does it mean?  Trust me, I was wondering the same thing too.  Well, according to this interview here, blurryface represents the insecurities that the lead singer feels.

Honestly, I think this represents people in my generation.  I believe that a lot of people my age have the same insecurities.  I will be the first person to tell you that I also suffer from these types of insecurities.  Being an adult is overrated.  I wish that I could go back to childhood where there was not a worry in the world.  I wish I could go back to the day where it didn’t matter what I wore,  what I looked like, and back to the day where I didn’t need to worry about job hunting or paying bills.  When I was growing up I was always greeted with, “Go for your dreams!” “Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t accomplish your dream!”  Is it just me, or was it the previous generations that taught us this powerful lesson?  However, if we do that, we are labeled as rude and disrespectful as well as greedy and lazy.  See the problem here?

This is just an idea, but maybe our dreams look different then people in previous generations.  Nothing is wrong with that.  Different dreams include different ways of achieving them.

That’s just my two cents.  What about you? Do you agree? Disagree?  Why?