This weeks song that I chose was Rachel Platten and her song “Fight Song.”
If you haven’t heard of Rachel Platten, she broke out into the music scene last year with this song and it was an instant hit. It seemed like everywhere I turned, or every radio station that I turned on was playing this song every hour on the hour. She just recently released her first full length album “Wildfire” at the first of the year and is continuing with hit songs like “Stand By You.”
This song really speaks to me and about my life here in Los Angeles and being in the music industry. Like I have said about a thousand times before, living here in LA and being in the music industry is not easy for anyone, let alone being disabled and pursuing a life in the music industry. It takes a very strong willed person to keep pursing and fighting every day.
My dad came to visit me a few weeks ago and he finally got a glimpse of what my life is like here in good ol’ Hollywood. I was excited to see him, and am very happy that I got to spend some time with him. I know my dad loves me unconditionally and supports me in anything that I want to do with my life, but I sometimes feel like he doesn’t understand why I decided to move all the way to LA to pursue a job that probably has the most unstable job market out there. Yes, it is not the most stable job environment, but it keeps me on the edge of my seat most days. But want to know something? I wouldn’t have it any other way. For example, a wise person once said that if there is something else that you are good at, and pursuing music isn’t your only option, go do that because the music industry is no cake walk. I have never been one to settle down with a 9 to 5 job. To me that is way to boring. I want excitement. I want something new to happen every day. This is why I am pursing a certificate at UCLA in their Music Business program. This is why I go to tapings and concerts and network with people from all around. I am learning every day, and yes, there are days where I have no idea what the hell I am doing, but it’s all a learning experience. This is why I always ask people to trust me.
I am a fighter and I don’t give up easily and when I set my mind to something I make sure it is accomplished, come hell or high water. Because like the song says, “I still gotta fight left in me.”
In past years I had tried making New Years Resolutions, but to no avail they never stick. So I decided to do something a little different this year. I would think of a word that would help define my 2016. It took a while for me to figure it out, but the word came to me last night. The word for my 2016 is: Surrender.
The last couple of months have not been the easiest for me health wise. Nothing too serious and it isn’t life threatening, but it is very annoying and there are days where I feel like the health issues control my life. Last night was one of those nights, but it also was different because that was also my breaking point. It was clear, I needed to surrender and let it go. I suck at that, always have, but this is the year where I am going to grow in that area. It’s not just going to help in health issues that I may have, but also other areas of my life, whether that be in relationships, or jobs etc.
So the motto for the year for me is “Let Go, and Let God” and remember that I cannot control every little thing in my life.
Last weekend I had the opportunity to see Joyce Meyer speak at a conference in Long Beach, California. Now, if you don’t know who Joyce Meyer is, Google or YouTube her. She is amazing and hilarious to boot!
Sadly, one of the sessions was cancelled due to a power outage in the area, but that did not stop the rest of the conference from happening the rest of the weekend. Her topic for the conference that weekend was about trusting God and doing good.
I think this is a very hard lesson to remember for anybody, but also very important. I think it is so easy to see how hard life can get and easily forget that God has it in the bag.
I think God wanted to see if I was really listening this past weekend because I was constantly tested with things that were going on in my life. It was like the inner voice in my head kept saying “Trust Me and keep doing good.”
She also said something about healing that really struck a chord with me and something that I completely agree with. Joyce said that healing is a process. Now, if you have kept up with my blog you know my thoughts and feelings on healing and being healed. She went on to say that many Christians think and believe that being healed should be a instantaneous thing and they end up not enjoying the process and journey that comes with it, which in turn brings bitterness, anger and hatred in my opinion. If I were to use praise hands, it would have been during this segment of the conference.
Going into this next week, I feel more encouraged and positive that things will turn out for the best, I just got to keep pushing forward and doing good.