This week I chose the song “Stressed Out”by twenty one pilots,
Twenty-One Pilots are a band that I just recently heard about after this song started playing on the radio. They have actually been around for about 5 years. The band, which consists of Tyler Joseph and Josh Dun, hail from Columbus, Ohio. “Stressed Out” is their third single off of their album “Blurryface.” To me, their sound is unique. A mix of hip hop, mixed with alternative with a pop feel.
You might be wondering why blurryface and what does it mean? Trust me, I was wondering the same thing too. Well, according to this interview here, blurryface represents the insecurities that the lead singer feels.
Honestly, I think this represents people in my generation. I believe that a lot of people my age have the same insecurities. I will be the first person to tell you that I also suffer from these types of insecurities. Being an adult is overrated. I wish that I could go back to childhood where there was not a worry in the world. I wish I could go back to the day where it didn’t matter what I wore, what I looked like, and back to the day where I didn’t need to worry about job hunting or paying bills. When I was growing up I was always greeted with, “Go for your dreams!” “Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t accomplish your dream!” Is it just me, or was it the previous generations that taught us this powerful lesson? However, if we do that, we are labeled as rude and disrespectful as well as greedy and lazy. See the problem here?
This is just an idea, but maybe our dreams look different then people in previous generations. Nothing is wrong with that. Different dreams include different ways of achieving them.
That’s just my two cents. What about you? Do you agree? Disagree? Why?
This weeks song that I chose was Rachel Platten and her song “Fight Song.”
If you haven’t heard of Rachel Platten, she broke out into the music scene last year with this song and it was an instant hit. It seemed like everywhere I turned, or every radio station that I turned on was playing this song every hour on the hour. She just recently released her first full length album “Wildfire” at the first of the year and is continuing with hit songs like “Stand By You.”
This song really speaks to me and about my life here in Los Angeles and being in the music industry. Like I have said about a thousand times before, living here in LA and being in the music industry is not easy for anyone, let alone being disabled and pursuing a life in the music industry. It takes a very strong willed person to keep pursing and fighting every day.
My dad came to visit me a few weeks ago and he finally got a glimpse of what my life is like here in good ol’ Hollywood. I was excited to see him, and am very happy that I got to spend some time with him. I know my dad loves me unconditionally and supports me in anything that I want to do with my life, but I sometimes feel like he doesn’t understand why I decided to move all the way to LA to pursue a job that probably has the most unstable job market out there. Yes, it is not the most stable job environment, but it keeps me on the edge of my seat most days. But want to know something? I wouldn’t have it any other way. For example, a wise person once said that if there is something else that you are good at, and pursuing music isn’t your only option, go do that because the music industry is no cake walk. I have never been one to settle down with a 9 to 5 job. To me that is way to boring. I want excitement. I want something new to happen every day. This is why I am pursing a certificate at UCLA in their Music Business program. This is why I go to tapings and concerts and network with people from all around. I am learning every day, and yes, there are days where I have no idea what the hell I am doing, but it’s all a learning experience. This is why I always ask people to trust me.
I am a fighter and I don’t give up easily and when I set my mind to something I make sure it is accomplished, come hell or high water. Because like the song says, “I still gotta fight left in me.”
Life is full of choices.
Sometimes this can be as simple as what clothes we want to wear that day to what we want to eat.
However, we also can make bad choices as well.
Recently, I have been going through some personal stuff and it has not been the easiest to deal with. I had been holding on to the anger, anxiety, and hurt. This caused me to not be easy to be around. I was withdrawing as well as on the verge of losing some great people in my life. Thats when my best friend came to me and told me that it is all about the choices we make. I could sit there and be depressed and pissed off or I could make the choice to let it go and be happy.
I decided to do the latter and let it go and be happy. Yes, I am still pissed off about certain situations but I am choosing to move on and not dwell on it. If I have a moment where it does bother me, then I will be honest with it, voice it, then move on.
Has anyone else had issues with making the choice of holding on to bad emotions and letting them control your life? If so, what did you do to let it go?
In past years I had tried making New Years Resolutions, but to no avail they never stick. So I decided to do something a little different this year. I would think of a word that would help define my 2016. It took a while for me to figure it out, but the word came to me last night. The word for my 2016 is: Surrender.
The last couple of months have not been the easiest for me health wise. Nothing too serious and it isn’t life threatening, but it is very annoying and there are days where I feel like the health issues control my life. Last night was one of those nights, but it also was different because that was also my breaking point. It was clear, I needed to surrender and let it go. I suck at that, always have, but this is the year where I am going to grow in that area. It’s not just going to help in health issues that I may have, but also other areas of my life, whether that be in relationships, or jobs etc.
So the motto for the year for me is “Let Go, and Let God” and remember that I cannot control every little thing in my life.
Lately I had been feeling lost with what I wanted to do with my life. I have been living in Los Angeles for a little over a year and a half pursing jobs in the music industry. But as time has gone on I have found a new found love for writing (hence the blog). I was starting to think that I wanted to switch from music to writing. After talking to a good friend though, I realized I could do both. The problem though: I have a hobbyist view on music and writing, meaning I am more passive and more of an observer with others instead of making my own content, as well as with my blog, and need to change my thinking to thinking about it as a career. I honestly do not know how to change my thinking with that, and I know I need to in order to fulfill what I want to do.
My question to all you wonderful readers out there: Do you have any advice on how I can do this? Have any of you had a similar issue? If so, how did you change your thinking? How do you become a successful content creator? Lastly, how do you get yourself in the right mindset to become a content creator?
A few days ago a picture came out of Kylie Jenner posing on the front cover of Interview Magazine in a wheelchair.
Then I started seeing people saying that it was disrespectful of people that are actually wheelchair bound because she isn’t disabled herself and it pokes fun at disabled people. When I read that I was really confused. I do not understand how it is hurtful at all, and I am disabled as well. From what I know of the research I have done, she referenced a British artist named Allen Jones. Also, speaking from the artistic/entertainment industry side of things, this is normal. People like Kylie will go outside of the box to get publicity (and lets be honest, the Kardashian/Jenner crew has been known to do that for years now).
I also saw a post saying if they had tried to recreate this picture it would not look as glamorous as Kylie’s picture. Now this is understandable, but let me get you in on a little secret, neither did Kylie when they took the picture. Please take a look at the cover and realize how photoshopped it is. She doesn’t even look real.
When it comes down to it, I say we move on from this situation and focus more on more important issues like the mass shooting in San Bernardino where developmentally disabled people go to get help, and focus on ways in which we can help the people who were affected by this horrible tragedy.
Last weekend I had the opportunity to see Joyce Meyer speak at a conference in Long Beach, California. Now, if you don’t know who Joyce Meyer is, Google or YouTube her. She is amazing and hilarious to boot!
Sadly, one of the sessions was cancelled due to a power outage in the area, but that did not stop the rest of the conference from happening the rest of the weekend. Her topic for the conference that weekend was about trusting God and doing good.
I think this is a very hard lesson to remember for anybody, but also very important. I think it is so easy to see how hard life can get and easily forget that God has it in the bag.
I think God wanted to see if I was really listening this past weekend because I was constantly tested with things that were going on in my life. It was like the inner voice in my head kept saying “Trust Me and keep doing good.”
She also said something about healing that really struck a chord with me and something that I completely agree with. Joyce said that healing is a process. Now, if you have kept up with my blog you know my thoughts and feelings on healing and being healed. She went on to say that many Christians think and believe that being healed should be a instantaneous thing and they end up not enjoying the process and journey that comes with it, which in turn brings bitterness, anger and hatred in my opinion. If I were to use praise hands, it would have been during this segment of the conference.
Going into this next week, I feel more encouraged and positive that things will turn out for the best, I just got to keep pushing forward and doing good.